How I challenged God

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A few weeks after embarking on the 60-day prayer-walk through New Zealand, I tented at Pelorus Bridge … in ice cold pouring rain.

That chilly Sunday night I was certainly not in a comfortable place. I managed to find a dry enough spot among the rocks and mud pools to pitch my tent. I managed to wiggle myself into a sleep-able position among the hard and sharp stony edges on the ground. Tired from the day’s walk, I slept like a baby.

Between a rock and a hard place
Upon waking up between a rock and a hard place, the next morning, I had something to be thankful for: At least I was still dry! It was very very cold.

I heard the sound of the river when I went to sleep and I heard it when I woke up. Something inside me had me weary to be careful because I didn’t know how high it would rise. So in a sense I was wary of the river all night long.

All packed up, and ready to go, I felt this urge in my heart to go down to the river before continuing on my journey. Next to the bridge, I found a footpath leading down between large boulders and sharp rocks. I descended carefully. I didn’t realise at the time that it was God nudging me in that direction because He wanted to show me something.

God wanted to show me one of the most awesome sights I have ever seen. It was something that He made.

I reached the river and felt this urge to walk to the right and when I reached a spot in the open – I heard from within:
Just stop and look.

I did and I was astounded. No camera could capture a moment like that. The air was crisp and cold. Fresh and clean. Stinging almost, like the sharp rough-edged rocks overhanging, almost carving like huge spears into the edge of the flowing water. Overhanging leaves, in contrast, softening the edge of the water. And the sunlight, those early-morning clear rays of bright indescribable freshness in shades from light to dark. The mighty river swept downward – a massive emerald river; … And I, tiny on the edge, trying to take in the beauty of this heavenly picture. I found it almost unbearable.

In that moment of being a dot in a vast riverswept landscape, in that moment of smallness, in that moment of ultimate beauty, I was overwhelmed by the beauty which I could only describe with the words “heavenly”, “surreal” and even “unbearable”. I really have not seen such contrasts in total peace and harmony.

Then I dared to challenged God …
• In that moment of awesomeness
• In that moment of smallness
• In that moment of ultimate beauty

“Lord God,” I muttered after having taken in as much as I was able to, “I don’t think that there could be a place more beautiful than this, anywhere on earth.” I continued in awe, “Can you make something more beautiful as this ever again, that I would be able to see?”

That question contained my challenge to God. Within that most awesome splendour of His majesty, the work of His hands, I was challenging Him that He maybe cannot make anything more beautiful than that!

And you know … God straight away answered me with two words.

I love God so much when He knows our hearts and our innermost beings so well that He actually had an answer ready for me.

He spoke into my heart: “Turn around”

I was almost scared to look away and loose sight of that beauty. I turned around and almost fell over backwards when I saw … no, I think that is where I grasped the meaning of the word “behold” … Far more beautiful – almost the same picture as downstream; except, everything upstream was more intense. More brilliant, more contrasted. More crisp and clear, more “dazzling emerald”.

He was awesome! He was glorified! He was magnified! I felt He showed me a glimpse beyond the veil.

He just proved me wrong and I felt that little speck in the awesome creation-picture just shrank a little as my understanding of Him grew bigger. God is so awesome and He is so amazing.

Dear God,

… You don’t have to prove Yourself to me.

I am overwhelmed
I am in awe

I am surrendered
I am in love

I want to see Your creation
I want to hear Your heartbeat

I want to know You more
I want to hear Your voice

Amen

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